the beginning of their end

You want too know what I'll do whenits over?" I asked holding her hand softly

Bonnie:
"What will you do?" I asked.

When they start calling me a hero I'll become the king maybe our at least someone important to them and I'll make sure to make things better.and I also plan to ask someone very special.......to marry me so we could rule together"I said softly giving her hand a small squeeze to mean I wanted her to rule with me

Bonnie:
"That sounds good. I'll... I don't know. Go someplace where no one knows my name nor my legacy," I said softly. "I'd miss you."

I can't imagine a life without you. Please stop running and just stay with me" I whispered leaning over and giving her a soft kiss

Bonnie:
I kissed him back, knowing I would have to leave. He would be king and there would be no place for me. So I would have to go. But for the moment, I could enjoy his kiss. After this, I would probably never kiss him again.
I wrapped my arms around him and kissed him deeper.

I put my hands on her hips keeping her close I don't want her to leave I love her to much to do anything without her. I might not be able to change her mind but one thing I'm going to make sure us that this becomes a special night for both of us

Bonnie:
I leaned forward a little, kissing him harder.

I kissed her deeply to get her on to of me as I kissed her deeply and passionately

Bonnie:
I moaned into his mouth and pulled away.

I looked art her softly. "no. If we can't be together we need to make this night special" I whispered

Bonnie:
"Special how?" I asked him softly.

Make it our first" I whisperedkissing her lips deeply

Bonnie:
"First what?" I asked against his lips.

Make love for the first time" I whispered

Bonnie:
I moved off him, a sort of aching in my lower stomach. I wanted to, god I wanted to. But I promised myself that I wouldn't until marriage. I got off the bed and walked to the door.
"I can't. I can't do it. I told you I wouldn't until I was married. I told you," I said and opened the door. "I'm sorry, J. But I can't." I walked out of the room. I couldn't afford pregnancy and I was going to leave. I couldn't get that close to him.

I sighed softly feeling like I royally screwed up I can't stand being without her I just list track of it all but I knew that she was more important to me then anything so I got up and tried to find her

Bonnie:
I found the servant girl and asked her to lead me to the kitchen. I went to help make bread or whatever they were making for dinner. I also begged the servant girl to lie to J about where I was because I didn't wish to see him.
I started helping make bread.

I looked aroundfor her but I couldn't find her anywhere I was loosing myself.I had too find her to try and tell her I was just acting stupid and it was only because I loved her

Bonnie:
I returned to the room once my head was clear and my body no longer ached. I ran a hand through my hair and opened the door.

I was sitting on the window sill looking out to the port trying my best to not cry but I took big shaky breaths holding in my tears. I loved her that's all I wanted to do was love her not push her away
((honest to Goff you are making this very difficult))

(( it's fun for me and it's not really as hard as you think XD just pretend to stop caring. isn't that what always works? girls want what doesn't want them? ))


Bonnie:
I shut the door and stood there, staring at him. His breaths were deep and a little uneven, like he was holding something in. Oh no... he was trying not to cry. I knew that look. I had that look for most of my life.
I walked over to him and sat down in front of him, taking his hands in mine.
"Don't cry. Please don't cry," I whispered and lay my cheek on his shoulder, pressing my forehead to his neck.

.......dear lord))
I sighed softly "thanks." I said simply kissing her forehead but gently pushing her away. "I need to do something if you don't mind" I said softly going back to the wall near my bed

(( unfortunately, it does work. ))


Bonnie:
I watched him get up and followed him.
"Look, I'm sorry... J..." I said and grabbed his wrist.

I gently took my wrist back "thanks but I have to do something for real" I said softly starting at the window and I took a breath and grinned as I ran as fast as I could and I swan dives out the widow dropping to the big hay pile below.feeling the adrenaline pumping and the wind go through my face as I landed snugly on the hall pile thank the leap of faith