My poems

As long as I can be the first >.> Might as well transfer all my stuff over.

So me doing poetry is something that rarely, rarely ever happens. Last time I willing wrote poetry not counting this month was in when I was eleven or twelve. Poetry and I kind of have a love hate relationship, I hate it but according to my friends atleast it loves me. So enjoy my poems while they last, because they are rare things.
Oh and I never title my poems, so if you wan't you can help me title them =)
Untill the day I die
When the sun rises up
I will keep on fighting
My way through your lies
You said you trusted me
Tried to tell me how you felt
But what's done is done
Their is no going back
Everything we had is beginning to melt
You say it's not your fault
But who else could it be
You were the only one there
So now I wan't to be free
To feel nothing without a care
I can't be sorry when its not my fault
This is just how is has to end
My feelings for you have gone around the bend
Just knowing your still here
Makes me want to run and scream
We used to be a great team
Maybe now I can cheer
Without your weight dragging me down
I can't say I'm sorry
This is just how it has to be
So go now and leave never to walk into my life again.
~Tyrial

I try to run
I try to hide
I can not escape
With you on my mind
I feel this pain
Surrounding my heart
I know what I have
I know what you mean to me
You make me smile
You make me laugh
I am all yours
Forever and ever
There are a few words
I would like to hear
I'll say it first
So you'll know how I feel
What I have to say
Is quite plain and cimple
Its just a few words
Its I love you.
~Tyrial
Well there you go, and just so you know. This poems kind of apply to my life, as I read them over then type them I can see the similarities. Anyway enjoy them, and if enough people like these two I can type up more.

Ok, so beyond me not feeling well today (mentally, physically and emotionally) I am glad so many people liked my poems. So I am going to post more. I could go in chronological order of when I wrote the poems, but the third one I wrote is really long, so I am getting the next to after it out first. Anyway here we go.
There are three words
That can change someones life forever
For good or for bad
For now and all eternity
The first word is simple
A letter
It refers to the person
telling something to you
This letter I refer to
Is none other than I
The last word is complex
A referal
It means the one whom
Our person is speaking to
This word while sounding like a letter
Is you and only you.
The word in the middle can have so many effects
From happyness to heartbroken and in between
The word in the middle can be so many things
The possibilities are endless within reason
But most commenly their are two little words
That we all know so well
One is hate for cruelty
The other is special and means so much more because
How can you not smile when you haven't heard "I love you" before.
~Tyrial
My mind is a hectic, chaotic place
Where voices and pictures run rampent with out end
Some of these thoughts and ideas
Are welcomed and accepted gladly, but then
The others that come when
My ind is at its weakest, its point, its end
They come unwanted just while
I'm depressed, injured, filled with unnatural hurt
Even after I'm better they stay
Waiting, waiting ever watchful to my pain
Helping it, hurting it, it is all the same
At first I hated these voices I hear
But now I wonder without them who else would I be
So I let them stay, I let them be free
To speak, to whisper, to go on and on
At times it is helpful the things that they say
Others they hinder and wound just out of spite
I voiced my thoughts and concerns
To others about these voices in my head
Soon after some men wearing happy smiles and white coats
Came and took me away
So now I sit here in my padded cell
Straight jacket on around me like a warm welcoming hand
I giggle and I laugh my mind now completly and utterly gone.
~Tyrial
So that ends part 2, and later I might put in the long one but for now I will see how all of you like this one.

Alright so this one is a really long one. This one was the one I skipped over to give you the last two poems, and just as a note I have felt everything inside this poem at one point. And just a warning it is really dark >.> But that probably wont stop any of you. =P
I have lived through your lies
I have lived through your deciet
Your lies no longer harm
Your smile darkens the sun
You broke my heart
Shattered it like glass
You look at me
And wonder why I am so sad
I can't say I don't care for you
I can't turn off my feelings like a switch
I don't know how you can do this act
Like nothing ever happened between us
I shudder to think about the other hearts you have broke
The feelings you destroyed
The dreams crushed
The emotions revoked
I must not be the only one to cry
These bitter tears over what I have felt inside
I have borne the brunt of your mocking and scorn
I have felt your tears and pain
I have touched your love and happyness
I have felt your blows and anger
as you beat me for nothing
I'm tired of dealing with your problems
Tired of wading through your lies
Tired of you
Tired of me
Tired of everything
I've tried to leave
To just forget you
And all you've done to me
But you drag me back
Thinking its good for me
Just go away and never come back
I can't deal with this anymore
I once looked up to you but thats now gone
Instead all I see is the pain you have caused
I'm done with you
With your false promises
Your lies
Your deciet
I'm sorry for everthinking the words
That hurt so much now
Because I realize
I don't love you
~Tyrial
This poem referes to more than one person in my life =/ But if you made it this far thank you for reading.

Ok....-takes a deep breath and lets it out slowly- This poem is really special to me. For those of you who don't know my dad is going to Afganistan on November 25th. I wrote this poem for him, but I have yet to send it to him. =/ Here goes.
When bullets fly overhead
When the ground explodes underfoot
I call you my brother
When ordered to do a mission
When we fight for freedoms right
I call you my brother
Even when we are not related
Even when you out rank me
I call you my brother
Through this war we shall stand
Shoulder to shoulder through hail and rain
I call you my brother
As we walk into an ambush
And take cover behind this wall
I call you my brother
Even as you save my life
As a bullet enters your heart
I call you my brother
As I clutch you to my chest
Before you breath your dieing breath
I call you my brother
As I now fight in anger
At your fall in service
I call you my brother
While I keep fighting
Though my heart hurts from you loss
I call you my brother
Back at base safe and sound
While I weep bitter tears over your death
I call you my brother
Even as the send me out
For the final time to fight
I call you my brother
When I get back
And find no more tears to shed
I call you my brother
Back at home I search for
Those who love you as I have
I knock upon their door
Introducing myself before I say
I called him my brother
~Tyrial
I cried as I wrote the poem. My dad hasn't been around much of my life, but I will always remember the time I have had with him fondly.

Well here I go once again...-blushes- Um to tell the truth I wrote the second poem here for a girl...-smiles sheepishly- I have no idea how she is going to react to it, but I sent it to her before I did this post so....yeah. Shall we begin?
My friends
My great friends
They mean so much to me
The smile I smile
you laugh I laugh
They cry I cry
You fight I fight
No one can take us apart
No one can divide us
No one can stop us
No one can get in our way
You I and us
Friends through everything
Heartbreak, sorry, and times of joy
All through which we shall stand
Together friends to the end
We call each other friends
But in truth we aren't
We are brothers sisters
All untill more feelings kindle
I have seen it happen
When friendship turns to love
Its sweet and cute
And something to cherish
~Tyrial
Everytime you smile
Everytime you laugh
I can't but do the same
Everysingle touch and tender kiss
Everysingle hug and loving embrace
Makes my heart flutter and beat
My world has started to revolve around you
You mean so much to me
I am yours for as long as you want me
Everytime you giggle
Everytime you blush
I grin in a happy stupor
Everysingle quiet gaze and long drawn out look
Eversingle hand hold and sweet cuddle
I can't help but sigh in contentment
I miss you when we are apart
I can't believe how lucky I am
Just to have you in my life
I know for a fact
How I feel about you
I love you plain and simple
With all of my heart
~Joshua

So as some of you know, all of the emotions in my poems are emotions I have felt. Well....yeah....Its difficult to explain this one, but I have felt all of recently....so yeah, enjoy...=/

I have nothing left to me
My friends come and go
No loved ones to hold in close

My privacy has been taken
Even my mind has been searched
As my parents want to send me to get help

What this all shows to me
Is that when it comes time
For me to pass away
I might just be standing here
All alone with no one who cares

My life is feeling empty
And I'm not sure to whom I can turn
Friends? Strangers? Family? Myself?
But none can see me for who I am

I have thought of every option
That I could use to set me free
From my existence in this sad state
I have gone so far
As pressing the gun against my head
But as I thought about not myself
But those I have have helped
I dropped my death from my hand

I sat there trembling
Whether from fear or sadness
I know not or care
All I know in truth
Is that I'm scared to escape
And too sad to flee

I wish my feelings
Ran on a switch so I could
Turn them off and on at will
But no matter how hard I try
My emotions keep coming back

All I know is that I'm
Reaching my end
How much longer I can go
I am not sure
But when it finally gives out on me
I hope I don't drag anyone else
As I fall
~Tyrial

0.0 damn....

I gave up after the second stanza when I started feeling depressed... Lol. Nice job. Real... strong emotion. I never get that in my poems.

sweetie, you're..... AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is epicness your poems have a huge impact on emotions and I can easily relate to them.