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"I don't know! I didn't want to feel like no one gave a damn about me. My dad sure didn't and neither does anyone at home. I don't think anyone does. I just didn't want to feel like that for at least five minutes of my miserable life! I can already know when someone was going to die, I didn't know how much worse it could get! I said I was sorry! What more do you want!" I yelled.

"I just wanted you,but know I cant."I said to her.

"Then stop." I said and moved away from him.

I frowned as I looked at her."I am sorry."I said as I slowly walked away.

I watched him walk away and wiped at my neck.

I went home and fell asleep.

I sat there, not wanting to go home.

I woke up and shifted into a bird flying out my window.

I sighed, feeling like shit.

I saw Nell as I landed a kinda aways from her as I shift into a dog and walked up to her.

I looked at the dog and pet its head.
"You seem to be the only one who doesn't hate me," I said sadly.

I shook my head as I placed my head on her lap. I didn't hate her I loved her but she didn't love me back.

"My life is fucked up. My mom died when I was five and my dad left me in the hands of his brother and his family. Then his wife died.... Now my step-aunt is a royal bitch and she hits me. She doesn't like my cousin either, but they just fight. Will won't ever see me as more than a friend and I won't ever see Drake as more than one. I wish life could be simple. But I guess I'm crazy. I'm talking to a dog," I whispered, tears leaking down my face.

I whimpered a bit,as I lightly licked her hand. I could just be her friend I guess. But I would always want more.

"Why can't life be simple," I whispered, pressing my face into the dog's neck.

I shifted back as I hugged her."Dont freak out I am not drunk anymore. And I can only be your friend."I said to her.

I nearly shrieked but I calmed down. Then I really started to cry.

"Sorry."I said to her softly as I let her cry into my shirt."And Nell you can stay at my place a I have a extra room."I said to her in just a friendly way.

I shook my head.
"I'm okay," i whispered, my voice shaking.

"You sure I wont try anything with you."I promised as I patted her back.

"She'll hit me if I try to leave," I said softly.

"What if I go with you and if she even trys I will turn into a wolf and attack her."I offered with a small smile.

I shook my head.

I sighed as I looked at her."Okay but if she ever hurts you... You can just come and stay with me."I said to her.

I nodded, knowing I'd never do it.